Wednesday, 28 December 2016

Whispers of the wind

Yule days vanished as phantoms in the darkness and there is only a few days left until a year turns. My heart is brimming with a sense of adventure as for the coming year and my mind is open for all new. There is still some affairs in the mind that I want to learn to handle better though I feel a progression has happened a lot. Coming year can bring anything into a theater of life if I just let flow. 

I played with my new love over the Yule and I'm speaking of the new camera. It wasn't the best weather, actually quite stormy, but I managed to take outfit pictures outdoors and some pictures of nature. 

Otherwise those days were spent in all silence while eating too much and exercising not at all. I entertained myself by reading and watching comedy and playing Sims. Some gifts appeared as well though I didn't order anything. A new smaller suitcase which is needed, a gift card to a local vinyl store, money etc.  And I already spent some money on a heart rate monitor because a dad recommended to get that 'cause I exercise quite much these days. As a matter of fact it's quite fascinating to follow the values from the monitor and perhaps that increases motivation though my motivation has been very good recently (knock on wood). 

Hope you all had a nice Xmas and let's see if I have time to write another post until the year changes. 

Friday, 23 December 2016

A new camera + outfit

I arrived at folks by a train today to spend Yule here as usual. A few days here and on Monday I will head back to home because I was asked for coming to work. Here is a day's reduced look:
An old knitting I found in a flea market years ago and that's became one of my favorite garment. 

Yule arrived actually already yesterday when a mailman brought me a gift which I ordered to myself. Those who follow me on Instagram know: A new camera! Canon Eos 6D and a quality zoom lens whittled away my bank account, but it's worth it. I have done a hell of a lot of work this year so I think I have deserved it. At first I thought that I open it at eve, but I wasn't able to keep myself in suspense. Now just need to find time to use it! I also have this crazy dream to get somewhere in the middle of Africa to take pictures about the wild nature. That just requires some arrangements like money and company. Maybe someday. 

What it comes to the spare time, I'm currently watching German language courses and I would like to attend one, but I'm a bit insecure if I have time or energy to go it through. The course begins in January and ends in April and it would take two hours in each week. Not a lot, but then again I have a school and a work and many other hobbies.. and some other plans for the coming year. Let's see. I have attended those courses before and I find them fairly useful to revive the old rusty skills. 

I wish you all happy Xmas now and I escape to eat some goodies and take sauna later today!

Monday, 19 December 2016

Scarlet kisses

Hello! I'm finally on a vacation and I do enjoy these days with no schedule. For once I can be awake through nights with the other half who is so called night owl and drink red wine. What we have done by nights, well we have watched Finnish stand up and checked out also Suicide Squad which I was about to go watch to the cinema, but never did. I liked it though Joker could have been more on show. Jared Leto is one of my favorite actor and he did a good performance once again.  No matter if he has a form of a dying drag queen or a junkie he looks always awesome. The last night I watched Interview with the vampire which I hadn't seen in a long time. 
 Here is an outfit from the other day. One of my favorite dress with some accessories. 
Today I should buy the rest of the gifts. I already was shopping yesterday, but there is still some small things that I need to buy. But before that I visit a gym. 

Wednesday, 14 December 2016

The dress with long sleeves and a tiny collar

A while ago I made the dress which is nice to whirl on during the winter. My wardrobe is filled with the dresses, but most of them are sleeveless or alternatively with the small sleeves. When I started to design this I definitely wanted the long sleeves and that the material is mellow. A hem is longer from the back side and there is the tiny collar which pleases my eyes a lot these days. Again a black and simple ensemble, but this is to my taste and it's easy to change the look by wearing different accessories with it. I visited a fabric store yesterday and there is coming the new dress soon as long as my vacation begins.

Thursday, 8 December 2016

Still I can hear your voice albeit you vanished away years ago

Independence day on Tuesday was my only day off this week and I spent it in nothingness by wandering in deep thoughts while trying to look for new paths which to choose. Recently I have found myself quite often in those thoughts it's like standing behind the door and thinking should I knock or not, metaphorically. There are also some thoughts that I would like to drive off from the mind for good. But that would be too easy. Some affairs follow you to the grave like it or not. I should develop my meditation skills. I know that would make good to my brain cells which occur to be lost between days. 

However here is an attire I wore that day. I have a crush on that headpiece though it's granny style. It was the cold day. I was about to take more pictures outdoors, but it didn't tickle me to stay out any longer. 
It's Friday tomorrow and I have only the next week to go and then my vacation begins! 

Tuesday, 6 December 2016

Pentagram dress from Queen of Darkness

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A package from Germany cheered up my mind the other day and what that kept inside was this lovely black maxi dress with pentagram back. The dress is from Queen of Darkness like the headline tells. I was surprised how well this fits to me because the long dresses or skirts are always as a toss-up due to that I'm quite tall and hems are often too short, but this is perfect. I also like the soft and quality material. It's solid enough and feels good towards the skin. The perfect dress for the next summer!
If you want to see original pictures about the product click here

Thursday, 1 December 2016


 While drinking a morning coffee it's a good moment to share an outfit which I wore the other day. I really like this look which  consisted of a self made piece and second hand items. Upper part is self made and a skirt and bag are flea market findings. Of course I had cardigan on as well because it's been the chilly weather during these days. 
 Top: Diy, Skirt and bag: Flea market, Tights: Seppälä
Recent days I have managed to sew a dress and finished a coat which I did the last spring. Good to have an inspiration back and I have tried to arrange time for sewing and now it's been easier when my other half has been busy with his duties. I've also danced around the pole more as earlier this year which has been awesome. It would be nice to attend the class after forever. Perhaps I try to find time in the spring side. Hard to believe the year comes to its end soon and I should get gifts for Yule, but the mind seems to give zero ideas. My beloved has his 38th birthday at Christmas eve and I would like to give something which surprises. For myself I decided to buy a new camera and lens which takes all my money, but it's worth it ;)

Saturday, 26 November 2016

Out of this gloomy light

My attire when we paid a visit to a goth flea market which was arranged today. 
Coat, hat, and scarf: H&M, Shoes: K-kenkä, Bag: Flea market, Leggins: Queen of Darkness

I saw today a conversation how to dress in winter time as a goth. My advice is quite simple: a lot of layers and use black! I have several overcoats and it depends on degrees of frost which of them I wear. This one which I wore today is one of my favorite. It fits perfectly to my body type and I like to wear it quite often. To be honest I have worn this look a lot during the recent weeks. A tube scarf is warm and quality suede gloves save fingers. Good looking shoes give a lot to the outfit. I prefer understated ordinary shoes often these days, but if you want to look über goth why not to wear something more goth? Most goth boots are too slippery for winter, but it's not a big thing to bring them a cobber and get better bottoms. If thinking closer it's really not a big problem to be a goth  in winter, it requires some arrangement not else. 

Monday, 21 November 2016

Gloomy Monday

I had some extra time in the morning so I decided to take outfit pictures before leaving out. For once I had time to focus on make up and drinking of the coffee without the rush and that felt good. I hate busy mornings. I'm the person who can't leave a home without drinking of the coffee in the morning. 
I put on a poncho from Queen of Darkness which is the casual choice. One of my favorite garment. 
I heard today that I have a few days off this week which certainly makes me glad. That knows what else than quality time with my sewing machine. A few projects have been haunting in the labyrinth of the mind and now I have time to start  to carry out them. I also booked a journey to Wave Gotik Treffen which also creates  a big smile onto the face. This will be our third time there! In spite of the rainy and gloomy weather this day turned out to be quite nice. 

Thursday, 17 November 2016

Eyes get used to the darkness

An attire from Sunday which happened to be my only day off in this month. I put on a pencil skirt which is from a flea market like also a bag. T-shirt is a finding from WGT journey and I love it! 

A need for create something by hand increases a day by day. I'm looking forward a vacation which comes after four weeks. Right now it's nearly impossible to find time for sewing or drawing and those are the things that I would like to do. Today I visited a fabric store and bought some materials which are waiting for the right moment. I should definitely take hold of myself and sew more! Recently a lack of spare time has created a barrier between me and creativity, but that's temporary. I have also prospered pretty well at the gym so that's also steals my time. 

Hope you all have had a nice week and I wish you a happy weekend!

Saturday, 12 November 2016

Shopping day

A short post about the goods which I purchased today. As I mentioned I need the boots for winter and I ended up buying these laced heels which are made of a real leather so let's hope they will go through many winters. I proved several shoes, but these were the sweetest ones although there would have been some other nice too. Good thing is also that these were discounted so perhaps I will get another pair more later ;)
 I also found the new suede gloves. I managed to lose my old ones when I was photographing and quality gloves are must have in winter time. 
 New earrings were extempore purchase. I watched these already earlier, but didn't have a heart to buy them. However I thought they are so pretty that I have to get them. 

Thursday, 10 November 2016

Beyond the dark veil

The things that were normal before feel abnormal these days. As you may know it was quite conventional to immortalize a picture about a dead relative in the 19th and 20th century. People were willing to have a last memory about a person who was left this world behind. The pictures were often taken  together with a family where the deceased was among the living and these pictures were also displayed. Even people who wasn't rich invited a photographer to home. Nowadays the people photograph their dead relatives quite rarely and it would be macabre to see the picture about the dead on someone's wall. There is several reasons why people have forgotten the habit as urbanization, wars and the death is institutionalized. Nowadays people don't see their dead relatives because the professionals are taking care of them. The death is kind of a taboo and we want to remember our loved ones as living. 

Why I'm talking about the subject is this interesting art book which I bumped ages ago and eventually wanted to have it into my own book self: Beyond the dark veil: Post Mortem & Mourning photography from the Thanatos Archive.  

The book contains old quality vintage photographs about the people and also about the animals. There is interesting stories behind these pictures for not all demises were natural. 
My own favorite is the picture about Kellers: Three in one casket because that hides a shivery story. A woman killed her husband due to his misconduct, and their baby, and in the end herself. And in spite of all they were buried together. That's odd!
I decided to share this book with you because I thought there might be people who want to hear about it. I also understand if some of you think this is too much, and I'm sorry if your eyes saw something they didn't want to. 

Monday, 7 November 2016

You want it darker

The other day I wrapped this lovely self made poncho around me. It's an eye candy, but slightly impractical with the overcoats, but I don't mind. Something black, graphic and simple what else I could need? Well a lot. My old combat boots are ready to be buried and yesterday I visited a few stores through to get the new ones, but with a bad luck so far. It seems to be a challenge to find the decent winter boots which looks good. I bumped into some pairs which looked nice, but they were  more for the fall. I would like to have a pair of combat boots, but also some leather boots with a small heel would be more as welcome. I have also done a bunch of clothing sketches because I also need shirts or dresses with the long sleeves. Time to update a wardrobe and shoe collection. 
Speaking of the eye candy here is something ear candy to you. I have listened to a lot Leonard Cohen recently and his new album is gorgeous masterpiece. A voice behind the grave goes through a soul. 

Friday, 4 November 2016

Birthday girl

A day as everyone else, but today I change a decade. Thirty it sounds crazy, but truth it is. Time flies quickly the past five years have disappeared in a flash and that makes me feel a bit uneasy. Sometimes, fairly often I  hope I could stop a movement of a clock hand and just focus on the existing moment. Whirls of a hectic life, I guess, make it happen that the time runs in a speed of light. 
Recently I have stopped to think of my past life for the last ten years, what has happened between these years since I was twenty and now. I remember well when I turned twenty. My life was quite chaos those days. I was living in a wrong place, I was surrounded by the wrong people, I was dreaming of the better life and I was fighting all the time with demons of the mind. I'm happy those days are history and I feel so much better these days in a physically and mentally. I have also thought of the things I have achieved and I can be pretty happy with myself. I'm currently living in a city where I want to live. I have a really good apartment, I have a job, I have studied a lot, I have been together with my sweetie four years soon, I have got a change to see the world and live abroad and many other things! Hope this next decade will be at least as good as previous or even better. 

Sunday, 30 October 2016

All Hallows' Eve

My very favorite season is finally here when ghost are dancing in the shadows. Even if I have felt some vague tiredness due to the shadowy days is this season still close to my heart and I find it inspirational. I was off and got a chance to enjoy the weekend with some wine and music. On Friday evening me and me beloved decided to keep a film night and we chose something which was adapted to the time: The woman in black which was revealed the good pick and managed to create a few cold ripples on my back. I enjoyed a glass wine and ended up wandering into the dreams well in advance before the time passed the middle night. 

Yesterday there was arranged a goth club with Halloween theme of course, and us usual I didn't have any costume... I'm the most laziest person as for dressing for masquerade and I don't even give any promises for the next year.. It's however nice to see how others are investing in their looks with a lot of imagination and time. I went in this simple look with the horns and veil. 
This year I haven't decorated my home either because I don't spend time here on weekdays at all so far. I'm working elsewhere and I visit here only at weekends and usually I work also then. That famous student life. Fortunately the situation is temporary and takes only a few months. However I changed curtains yesterday so that there would be at least a bit atmosphere at home. 
The next Friday it will happen. I will turn to 30... no celebration is coming. I don't like to be a queen bee so no jubilee is arranged and besides I have seven workdays during the next week. We only have an aim to go eat out with my love and that fits me well. I try to do some kind of birthday journey overseas later in the spring. 

Friday, 28 October 2016

Falling from the darkness

Some playing with the camera. Nothing else.

Monday, 24 October 2016

I wanted to be where nobody I knew could ever come

Some weeks ago I was wandering between the stores and bumped into this lovely and charming black mini dress with a small collar. I especially fell in love with that collar and also the material pleased the eyes. Unfortunately it's too cold to wear it only as such so far, but with the cardigans then. The new granny hat also looks good with it ;)
Vacation passed too quickly and there is eight weeks to go until the next one. Well it goes quickly too. I have my thirtieth birthday the next week. It's kind of shocking and I haven't thought it actually much. It's just a number and I don't even celebrate it more particularly. I was about to travel, but I will do that later...  Halloween is also behind the corner and some merrymaking is coming. 

Wednesday, 19 October 2016


I ended up ordering a new lens for my camera and for the last few days have gone by photographing around the corners. Sigma 35 mm f 1.4 art moved into a camera bag and it asks a bit practicing to shake it down. It's excellent if taking pictures about the people and tomorrow my beloved promised to be a model for me. I feel a bit destitute because the lens wasn't the cheapest one, but I hope it's worth it! Here are some pictures which I have taken for the past days. (not all taken with sigma)

I was thinking of creating some kind of gallery page for the pictures. Before I had Deviantart account, but nowadays I have nothing. Flickr seems to be quite popular, but somehow I don't feel it's for me. I would like to develop my expression and skills as for photographing and it would be nice to share some shots also with you.